It's funny how sometimes we forget to build our pillar of faith. It always seems a lot harder, a lot more painful, a lot scarier and a lot lonelier when God is closest to you. Sometimes you feel like the weight of the world is upon your shoulder...you know what i mean?!?! The times when expectations get high and all eyes are on you, waiting for you to deliver...but you just can't! Instead, you watch your castle of dreams crumble before your very eyes and you begin to wonder where to turn next.The times when it seems like all paths do lead to a door? but what good is a door behind which there is nothing but a brick wall? the times when all those uplifting christian songs and encouraging Christian phrases on the backs of t-shirts go right out the window. It is at this precise moment that "faith" comes into play. When all else fails and you have the choice between turning to or away from God, but you choose to hold onto God. Then it begins to make sense: that HE makes all things beautiful in his time. I have come to the conclusion that i will always choose Jesus, no matter what i am up against. Because its in those times when i feel like all hope is lost that Christ counts on me to really trust HIM like i declare so boldly in my songs of praise. For me, HE is my hiding place...in the midst of my chaotic life, he gives me a sound and peaceful mind each and everyday. He gives me reason to not just exist, but to actually "live". Through this, i build my pillars of faith and i look back, not in fear but in remembrance of the pillars...the pillars i built all the times he brought me through.
Psalm 32: 7
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