Mali Music!!!

OMG! I finally made it to a Mali Music concert! it was truly phenomenal! I enjoyed every second of it. I mean dude is so humble and throughout his performance makes sure he doesn't get idolized! This brother is truly anointed...you can feel it instantly when he starts singing....if you get a chance, check him out...his lyrics are deep!

For Better or for Worst Lord!

On nights like this, i think of our vows to keep seeking you  Lord and the promise you made to never leave nor forsake me. I think of how much you love me, and how i can never love you enough. I look at this picture, and it reminds me of us, it keeps me reassured that even though things may get tough, i'm not alone, we are in this together! And who better to have on your side than Jesus? I'm in this till the end Lord, but there is absolutely no way i can do this without you! So Lord please give me the strength to keep holding on for better or for worst....

Here today gone TODAY!!!

Imagine standing in front of this "clock looking thing" and watching it change numbers every second but not really understanding what it's counting. Then pause for a second and imagine how you would react if someone whispered in your ear "this counts the number of people who die as every second passes". It's not just an ordinary counter anymore, now is it? understand, this is no scare tactic to make you seek Christ, this is a true wake up call for me. There is an URGENT need to tell people of the saving grace of Christ and each second we keep our lips sealed, someone slowly slips into eternal suffering! This speaks loud and clear to me Fam! Jesus is not my secret to keep, especially when it jeopardizes someone's soul! I mean, is there anything more important than telling someone about the truth that the WORD gives? Is being rejected, isolated or called a Jesus freak worth letting someone loose their soul? Because many say "here today, gone tomorrow" but truth is you could be "here today, gone TODAY"

I need a Revelation of YOU!

 

Random Thoughts

I just want to see a glimpse of you! i want to get to know you better lord, no phony new age love. More like the good old days kinda love, something like the way you love me. Though sometimes i feel like you are still so far away, i trust that you will never leave nor forsake me.  I just want to seek you till nothing else matters...

Does God break promises???

 

Random thoughts all over my mind, hence the haphazard "flow"...bear with me Fam.

The past couple of days have been pretty rough Fam! i just got the news that i would no  longer be participating in this program i had been patiently waiting for since Feb 2010. I had prayed over it for a long time, and i really did believe that was what God would have me do after college. There was hardly any doubt in my mind! I mean it was everything i wanted. It was a really good opportunity for me to live in a foreign country, out of my comfort zone and share the gospel. But in this, i have realized that sometimes we may get caught up between what we think God's plan is and what it actually is. Truth is,  i just realized how easy it is to trust in God when you have a fall back plan! and how hard it gets when He is all you have to look up to.The past couple of days, i have really struggled with trying to figure out why i didn't see any clues that this might not be His will for me. I have been trying to wrap my mind around how God works, and i just realized that His ways are too great for me to comprehend. The toughest part is trying not to be offended with God and understanding that "after obedience comes Revelation" and not the other way around. BUT praise God! because in  the midst of all this, one thing i know is that God never breaks a promise!

The WORD: For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

                                                                                                                                     Jeremiah 29 v 11

I surrender!

 

Unto you Lord i totally surrender...I give you my life, my will, my heart, my everything. I trust you even when everything seems to fall apart because i know you make all things beautiful in your time. I know my situation did not come to you as a surprise so i look to you and you alone for answers. Not friends, family or inspirational songs and movies, but You alone. I give you my best God because i love you, and no matter what i face, i will still look to you. I once heard my pastor say " faith is not believing without fear, faith is believing(courage) in the midst of fear!"- Pastor Marc Hannah

Ever Been To A Bonfire?

Caption: I know this looks nothing like a bonfire lol, but this is a great depiction of how His presence made me feel

I had never been to a bonfire before because every single one i got invited to involved heavy drinking. However, i had always heard of how awesome they could be and i desperately wanted to try it out! Well i finally got invited to a bonfire this weekend by some brothers and sisters from Friday Night Fire Bible study. Must i say it was one of the MOST God felt experiences in my entire life!!! As i sat there and stared straight at the fire while worship songs were being sung, it felt like everything in my life that wasn't of God just began to burn away. I seriously can't explain the feeling! I mean, it was just so amazing that everywhere exept for where we sat was cloudy. You will not believe, but there was a portal right above us with clouds so clear and bright, it was as if you could see God's face. Though most of us only met each other for the first time that night, the spirit of God eliminated all division, bonding us together like friends of several years. The main commonality was Christ, and that was enough. Seriously, it's not everyday that you get to have such an encounter with God, and i feel so blessed to have experienced Him in such a huge manner.

just thought i should share :)

I'm Really Grateful For You!

 

First of all i thank God for loving me so much that he let me run till the end of myself in order to realize how much i need Him every single day! I thank Him because even when i'm so consumed with self that i can't make the right decisions, he makes them for me. I thank Him for renewing the joy of my Salvation and giving me once again the heart felt desire to seek him. I also thank those of you who were constantly praying for me, some days i could really feel it in my spirit. I thank you for allowing God to use you to remind me that He alone is God. Fam, the past 3 weeks have really been crazy! God has definitely used numerous situations to humble me. He has thought me patience and above all loving others not as i love myself, but as Christ loved me. Till now, i never fully understood what it means to love in the midst of adversity, to love even when everything inside of you is screaming out how stupid you are for not lashing out. For it is east to love and be loved in return, and it is something completely different to love and not be loved back. I count myself blessed to have experienced a minute glimpse of what Christ went through.

Looks Can Be Deceiving - Part 1

 

What is good can seem evil, and what is evil is EXCELLENT at looking good!-Jackie Hill

Have you ever thought " he is just perfect, this must be who God has in store for me"? yup yup, i sure have. But by what standards do you consider him "perfect"? Have you examined him by the standards of the scripture? or does he just fit a shallow description of your ideal guy? Do you always find yourself in situations that seem "perfectly" uncompromising (one party and just one drink couldn't hurt) but the night ends up taking a completely different turn? One drink turns into 3 and though you think "i can handle my liquor" you smother the spirit of God in you so much that you can't hear His voice telling you to flee! You slowly become comfortable with sin and before you realize what is happening, the devil has had his way with you. He starts by sabotaging your witnessing, he lures you even further away from God, then when you have no protection, he goes in for the kill. So be careful what you open yourself up to, music, movies, social gatherings,people and non bible based churches. For satan does not come with horns and dark clouds but as an angel of light! Be watchful and pray ALWAYS.

CHECKIN' IN....

 

I just realized i have not made a single post in over a week! I've just been feeling very distant from God, almost as if He has left me. I have really been struggling with seeking Christ's face lately. I don't understand what is going on :( but i stand on HIS promise to never leave nor forsake me. So to all my readers, please bare with me while i take some time to check-in with  my FATHER.